Cat in a box

When I feel blue I look at Lexington Kentucky Bourbon,and how happy she is in the BeBe box that Noelle sent me.  LKB is so content, my emotional state today is challenging I am going to work on my burlesque # for Valentine's day and channel this energy into something positive! 

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Devohn Walker

On my way to the Olive Tree cafe & Comedy Cellar yesterday,  a young man caught my eye.  I approached in awe of the retro style he was working!  The fearlessness of a young adventurer in NYC. He titled himself "Entrepreneur Celebrity Socialite" May you follow your dreams!  It was a pleasure meeting you.  Devohn, asked me if I had a Blog,  and I said yes Goddess of Transformation, and you are one as well.  He smiled.  We continued on our ways as though we had known each other for sometime.  Talking about fashion, people watching.  And how we came to be in NYC.  The passions that drive us,  and the dreams we make happen.  

Gatsby - Elizabeth Devlin - Ladybug 7"EP

Elizabeth played for us at one of the KGB JAM sessions last year. She is an artist that is constantly evolving and I am enamored by all she does. Blessing to you Little Miss Devlin! You are brilliant!

Love Quote

One of the oldest human needs is having someone to wonder where you are when you don't come home at night.
~ Margaret Mead
On cold day like today I wish I could crawl into a warm bed placing my cold hands and feet around you.....   but it Must be true, for my blanket tells no lies. Y es mejor sola que mal acompañada.  Stay warm NYers
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The backhander

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Love Quote

Love is the true means by which the world is enjoyed: our love to others, and others' love to us.
~ Thomas Traherne

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Last months GO magazine had this image of me for there tattoo contest.  Just want to inform you,  that my tattoos have been done at Rising Dragon & North Star, both located in Manhattan.  I highly recommend the artists at these locations.  For details contact me.

What did my shoes say today?

Change me!!!!  Before it starts snowing.   Running back home from modelling to put on my boots, and off to enjoy an evening of tango. Silent passion, empowering steps every song a reminder we love, we feel, we hurt, we SURVIVE & LOVE AGAIN someday...

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fully committed

this year I am fully commited, to myself.... it's so easy to fall in love to quickly (for the sake of love itself) I am in LOVE with me, I love me, and though it sounds cliche these words were very hard to say at first. Today I made a choice. All or Nothing! in every aspect of my life, my art, my acting, my health. My new friend and mentor GARY SWANSON, is strongly saying FULLY COMMIT! I have been hearing this voice in my head, daily when I lay in bed and trust me it is hard (it was hard) for me to get up in the mornings, I would find any excuse to lay there and feel like a Princess, or at least what I perceived to be a princess... In my dreams I had nothing to do and enjoyed that. But in reality I did not enjoy having nothing to do. The less I did the sadder I became. Today I wake up and say WHAT DO I NEED TO DO? HOW DO I ACCOMPLISH THIS? Gary mentioned how habit forming it is to accept a little bit of self betrayal.... This stayed in my mind, it's kinda like the mañana mentality... well Today is the day that counts! Actions speak louder then words! I will not betray myself! I will do what I set out to accomplish. LIVE LOVE LAUGH!!!

Love Quote

Love makes of the wisest man a fool, and of the most foolish woman, a sage.
~ Moritz G. Saphir

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Love Quote

A successful marriage requires falling in love many times, always with the same person.
~ Mignon McLaughlin

I grew up under the most beautiful example of this!  To this day my parents continue to keep there love alive in new ways.
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Notions of Identity

I question gender & race with my Goddess of Transformation. Reclaiming the image of blackness as an emblem of power. A GODDESS has no Nationality & Black is all colors together. Silence and fear are in your eyes when I come walking down the street. Breath Breath Breath I search for inner growth. You judge and punish me before I begin... when all I have is praise, power, and patience. In my last performance with NYSAT New York street advertising take over, I was not able to perform my number because of a man filled with fear and anger opposing me, and preventing me form reaching my canvas. This is all on video. Which brings me to the reason for this blog today. This was all filmed on a (high8) I do not have access to making this digital so I can edit and upload it. If any of my friends or readers have advise for me, please leave me a comment. The sooner I get this digitized the more progress we make.

Love Quote

Love is something eternal; the aspect may change, but not the essence.
~ Vincent van Gogh

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Love Quote

I have loved to the point of madness.  That which is called madness is the only sensible way to love.
~ F. Sagan

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Love Quote

If you love someone, let them go.  If they return to you, it was meant to be.  If they don't, their love was never yours to begin with.
~ Author unknown

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What do my shoes say today?

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Anti Valentine's

ready for my first small anti Valentine's dinner party

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Ready for summer

Let's remember the heat and look forward to the adventures of; Un
Verano en Nueva York!!!

LA LA LAND

My trip to LA LA LAND was beautiful! With the company of the lovely Noelle, I was able to take back that joy I had miss-placed, when did I put it in LA? Sometime we have to step away from a situation to see the reality of what was and what now is. Life's perspective. I can be on my own, I can see the moon from my window at night and enjoy the peace of an empty home. Vast blank canvas, where my thoughts roam free. My new hopes can become reality. This is the year of self, how interesting, so close to a union, and now peacefully choosing to be alone. LOVE is a constant struggle. I heard today "Love is a war term" I found this to be so true, after we meet we do the courtship dance just like all other animals peacock-ing our attributes, once we've chosen a mate (this is for male and female alike) then our ego comes back into our reality, now the relationship has the real test, the test of time. True Love, True Friends, True Companions... The few and far between. Yet it does exist.

Love Quote

Love is friendship set on fire.
~ Jeremy Taylor

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Love Quote

Justice is the loveliest and health is the best, but the sweetest to obtain is the heart's desire.
~ Aristotle

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Love Quote

A woman's imagination is very rapid; it jumps from admiration to love, from love to matrimony in a moment.
~ Jane Austen

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Daily LaunchTip for January 18, 2010 | Starting a Business and Growing your Company, Ladies Who Launch

Daily LaunchTip for January 18, 2010 | Starting a Business and Growing your Company, Ladies Who Launch

What do my shoes say today

Sacrificial Ram

"Sacrifice your heart" said the ram and you'll never feel that loss again.

breathing

I took a deep breath this morning at 1:39 pm looked out my window to find the sun shining and no breakfast to make. My roomie and I laughed at the ridiculous exit of Popeye. speak your mind and choose your words! I have no time for disrespectful nonsense! if your in my presence, there is a reason. respect that or get the &*&#@ out!!!

La Florida de Lea

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What do my shoes say today...

I'd like to go home but baby it's cold outside....

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2010

For all the troubles and all the pleasure I Love being Alive!!!!  Thank you Universe xoxo

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The serpentine tamer... count down to 2010

Spending the afternoon preparing for NEW YEARS

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What don't shoes say about me today

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Let go of that bitter Apple

So many different points of view, I we all know I have been feeling the disappointment of love lost.... That bitter sweet taste of losing something that was wonderful, and yet is over!!!! I wish to keep the good memories alive, for there are so many, but If I only think of the good then I latch on to this illusion of what I LOVE... that no longer is. so ..... and if I focus on the bad that ended the relationship then I become angry and full of hatred for being in this situation that has no logic... how tragic.

so love the past and become delusional or hate the past and become jaded... wow... the in between stages of life are always the hardest, because once enough time passes, everything fades, like my teens they have begun to fade. Wow I would enjoy a re-encounter with my school girl uniform just about now...

Inventory of the past 365 days

All Positive Accomplishmentt:

Being more honest with myself

Olive Tree

Goddess Of Transformation

Malena

Burlesque

The Box

Slipper Room

Purgatorio

ISSA - not completed

Less Debt

Tango

KGB Jam

Lexington Kentucky is home

Calypso Rose

Google phone

Live Love Laugh

Spending time with the whole family

Finding a new Apartment w Monica

Knitting

Less Positive

*** ***

Baby maker ...

Go to more castings

Need new Head shots

Learn new monologues

Go to more classes

Dance More

dance more dance more

Use Flip camera

Organize phone & comp. to function in life better

Look inside about *** ***

Visit Colombia

Collect images of art work I have participated in

Wish List :

Argentina

Colombia

Bali

Australia

Rome

Martial arts Film

Find a work out ritual that's fit for me

Ruminate More

Steady work routine

Patience

simplify my personal belongings

Studio space

Explore New Music

This year I look forward to staying Focused, on track with my goals, hopes, and dreams

The walk home, the rain failing lightly on the dirty snow of NYC, I am walking down Houston my Mission to return to Brooklyn with trees. The holidays threw me for a loop. I must complete my lists before New Years... As I walk the voices begin to rise. *** *** is dead, can you believe it *** *** is dead. I get to rest tonight. Time to thank for all my accomplishments. How did *** *** die, it was an attack of the heart, so painful to watch I tell you. But now we must move on. You see there seems to be a corporation in my head, ME, MYSELF & I. That night on my way home they needed to vent. The plan was, to train at work. Starting at 7 pm, but it was a slow day and knowing that the rest of the week is going to be busy, they offered me the evening off. So as I walk toward the L train, taking the longest possible route to 1st and 14th. As I reach 1st ave I get a call... Sure come by. I enter an old apt with a tub in the kitchen. Can you believe this I have been living in NYC for 12 years and this is the first time I am in an apartment with a full vintage tub in the kitchen, I can't get past the visual, I just want to sit in there and the let the shower run over me while watching you make coffee.... wow I got to go. So now WE are walking again. I enjoy being alone in the city tonight. There are few people out, including traffic. walking down to canal street. A place I normally would avoid in the day. It's quiet the red lights glisten in the rain. German tourists are talking behind me. The girl has beautiful full lips no lipstick but the are red from the cold.

I love my long black Jacket I can continue to zig zag through the city in the rain, Masotta I am thinking of walking in the rain for hours. I get on the train . Take out my google phone as I wait begin to play games. I board the train with out looking but sure I am facing the right side, how many time have I taken this train... When we get to the next station I jump out and question my instinct only to board the next train swiftly as though I am in an Indiana Jones movie. I check and NOW I AM ON THE WRONG TRAIN. Giggling to myself I realize I don't want to go home yet. I get out an walk again in the rain with the lights and the quiet solace of the city. I HEART NY. Feeling alive in a simple walk.

Seven Challenges for Sustainability in 2010

Fire Play

Spent the afternoon with a great friend and performer (I Like You), I found a new thrilling fear, to conquer.... Fire play. I enjoy the feel of this against my skin, but my heart beats so fast, and I must take a moment and slow down!!! After a great work out, and no more hair on my arms. It's time for work.

druken Santas

walking cross town on 4th St. after an amazing workout with some fire play, I became confused by the amount of Santa costumes I was seeing, disturbing drunken. My inner child wants to puke! I am going to enforce a no Santa rule tonight at work.

Ten pounds project

I read all these blogs about losing weight staying thin, what about the girls who need to gain weight? who have a healthy active lifestyle, but somehow got to thin. Last night at the NYAA art opening, I was talking with Panning, Nicole, & Elizabeth all three talking about losing weight they look at me and say you don't have that problem... no my problem is I don't gain it!!!! so my goal 10 pounds and the only way I will know is how my legs and ass fit into my jeans. Since I have a phobia of scales (thanks to r.m...)

I want to lie on my back with my legs in the air, squeezing to fit into my favorite jeans beat up black with patches everywhere. I want to feel that my legs can barely be contained.

Make

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Make: Online : Open source hardware 2009 - The definitive guide to open source hardware projects in 2009

dumbo's feather

simple little things mean so much. recently I was showered with gifts. everyone loves to be cared about. but most gifts especially in this seasons when people feel obliged to give... mean nothing.
I met a stranger, who gave me a bracelet simple wooden beads, old, worn in, faded, said they brought protection. I don't take them off, if you don't see them on my wrist they are on my ankle under a big flowing dress, or in my hair as I model for artists. but mostly they are on my right wrist, on my left wrist Live, Love, Laugh. Words to live by, another reminder another great gift.
my wrists make me feel like WONDER WOMAN.

lol

why do people write lol? really arecyou laughing or nervous you might be taken serious?

La Princessa Mandarina tiene un nuevo Tattoo... Estoy feliz, Live, Love, Laugh. Porque la vida nos da palo!

Hola Universo que es lo que me tratas de decir? Te estoy escuchando....

Amanecer y ver la realidad, como piensas que esas brutalidades de comportamiento me gustan como mujer.

Recently it has come to my attention that I fall into so many (WRONG) categories. I am sitting at the bar last night when this man who looked like he was wearing a wig, and has laid out in the sun until his skin was orange, starts talking to me.... I take a moment stand, turn my chair to make sure (in what I consider a polite manner) I give him my back. My lack of interest in his solo bragging conversation labels me Jewish or a Dyke... I turned in awe, and thought to myself hmmmm, it's better then being asked if I am a gender bender from Singapore. I posted the following comment on Facebook and this is what I got.

Are you Jewish or a dyke? No I am Colombian

Natsku Vega

LOL! Perfect....

Heather Ackerman Humphries

LOL. Please come visit me w/ Monie. I am laid up after surgery. Would love to see your pretty face.

Gayatri Martin

labels, gender, are you human? i did a cool gender exercise at my tantra workshop this past week-end ... lists of gender attributes were cool i think u r cool

Jeff Stache

It's a classic question! Do you thnk it would work if I tried it as a pick up line?

Jeff Stache

Gender attribute are important ot humans, otherwise we'd be squids. Just importnat not to be trapped by them but use them to our best advantage.

Matthew P. Gordon

OMG did someone actually ask you that? You're kidding...

Jeff Stache

Was it a man or woman wsho asked you? Im mt imagination I'm seeing either guy with slick hair, a wifebeater shirt and a big gold chain, or... a woman with slick hair, a wifebeater shirt and a big gold chain.

telephone access

another quicker connection to the www. moment to moment....

Forced Transformation

I know what all you dirty minded little friends of mine are thinking, but no.... this is not a TRANY story. It's life, my life. This past month without notice everything has changed again. My sadness is slowly drifting away, my hope has begun to shift into acceptance. My questions remain ... UNANSWERED

I am strong

I am able

I am mine

Families come together in times of need, when your heart aches you find solace in the silent support of your loved ones. My Father countless times amazes me! Strong silent sensitive Man. This morning I received a phone call to wish me a lovely day, to say I love you! I don't understand why your art form uses your body, or why you perform in such ways, but I LOVE YOU!

I answered the phone nervous wondering what else in my life can be judged.... I am honest and open, but I no longer will take part in being morally challenged, because I am a woman who understands her sexuality, I am a woman who is not afraid to be vulnerable, to be exposed, to feel, and to live!

With my eyes open, my feet firmly on the ground I will move forward.

Spending Time With New York Street Advertising Takeover

Our fist public take over... Than you to all the artist who took part. Jordan you are brilliant!

Public Ad Campain

Original Dedication...

To the fearless Lovers & Faithful companions!

I have linked the NY Times article to Art vs AD , the takeover efforts were organized by an artist, Jordan Seiler, who founded a group called thePublic Ad Campaign

to question and challenge the use of outdoor ads in public areas. This is the 2nd time I participate. performance was video taped and fortunately there are so many unexpected elements. That I will wait to share.

To all my friends and supporters! Thank You! Julia my Young Kali! You are amazing! We must continue to BELIEVE IN OURSELVES

Be Realistic Demand the Impossible!!!

Live Love Laugh

Malena Slideshow

Malena... Despues de mucho tiempo en mi cabeza estas viva para el mundo.

Put On Your Red Dress, Baby!

Put On Your Red Dress, Baby!

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This SUNDAY

Curious
Burlesque & Dance Party

Sunday
OCTOBER 11TH

Piano's
Upstairs
158 Ludlow St.
nyc


21+ with ID
free admission

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Every second Sunday of the month, at Piano's, resident performer Mademoiselle Lena of False Aristocracy, curates a night of Curious burlesque and variety, in two acts [ @ 11pm + 1am ].

The dance party continues throughout the night, from 10pm to 4am, to music provided by Mike Dextro of False Aristocracy.

This New Orleans styled event integrates live burlesque shows with a dance party, and while the themes for each night will differ, the general aesthetic will remain the same. Naughty contests, various debauchery and comedic improv by the MC lasts all night.

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October 11th
performances by ::

Mademoiselle Lena [ False Aristocracy // {ETHER} ]

Sweet Lorraine [ Ixon Burlesque ]

Liliana -Goddess of Transformation [ LVMFLOR@gmail.com ]

pick up and co-mistress of ceremonies:
Purple Kitten

PURGATORIO!!!

PURGATORIO This Halloween!!!!

About

Combining the energy and glamour of a world-class nightclub with the spectacle and illusion of the theater, Purgatorio will offer an interactive Halloween experience unlike anything seen before in New York nightlife.

Adults 21 and over will be immersed in a multi-level world of macabre fantasy complete with interactive variety acts and installations, all set in a dynamic environment that is at once frightening, erotic and whimsical.

There’s nothing typical about this nightclub. Dance, drink, and party with the undead at Purgatorio and see what indulgences await you on the other side.

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Mercedes Sosa - Gracias a La Vida

Passion, Poder, Poeta

Alan Brownfeld Autorepair

ALAN we support you!

Kate Beckinsale Sexiest Woman Alive Video from Esquire

I see her powerful playfull smart sexy woman!!!!! MEOW!!!

Back Kitties

The past month Huckleberry Bar was blessed

by having a beautiful Mama Cat come to their yard and gave birth to 4 all black kitties

Blessings and Happy Anniversary.

Saturday's L train ride, it was raining I took my time dressing for this weather I love the rain the soothing calm and introspect. We see the world through shades of grey. I walk to the station. The L train will depart in 3 min... As I run down into the station, closing my umbrella, sitting my imagination begins to feel the room and the voice in my head is interrupted by a beggar I try to look away I wonder what his deal only to find that as he gets closer to standing by me he is missing a leg. There is a metal replacement. I feel conflicted. Now I do want to give him $$$ but can't. The lady across from me feels the same, she searches her bag for some token. Rising from her chair she tries to reach and him give him what has fallen into her palm from her coin purse. When she turns around returning to her seat and see that the healthy forty-something year old man has immediately taken her seat. I watch him not turn his face, he is concentrating so hard not to make eye. He catches me laughing through my eyes. As this happens a short chunky man wearing gold velvet sweat pants pushing a red satin cart with tassels and a fedora takes his place in the center of the train. He pulls out a large bell that he hits with a stick to get our Attention he does not speak wears sunglasses and spends his time facing us then facing the other side of the train. Once we are all looking. He pulls out pots shows us that they are empty then another pot that goes inside when he separates them we see an Albino Pigeon my favorite!!! He continued with several tricks the color book that has nothing then outline then colored in. Until. He ended pulling a rabbit out off a box. I clapped and laughed as my ride came to an end. NYC I heart you!

Another lovely evening at The Olive Tree Cafe

emma peel

I love to wear catsuits!!! All that can happen!

rubber girl

Women in latex fun. She looks like she might be in some liquid latex.. could it be?

KGB JAM 9/21/09 Review

It was a pleasure to celebrate the Autumn Equinox with all of our talented friends. This "acoustic" gathering somehow turned into a full blown rock show... performed by "Wild Yaks". The first song "Angle Eyes", had the Triangle of power (Mia, Liliana &Johnny D)

holding our hearts in our hands as the neighbors called to ponder what we were doing. I quickly jumped in and gave the boys a drink break, LOL. While we readjusted the sound levels. Zack, Rob, Dan & Martin sat in a semi circle embracing there boyhood forever. It was inspiring to

see how they adapted to the original ACOUSTIC plan. Martin's Drum set was taken away, to my heart ache. As Wild Yaks played "Crazy But Not Afraid" he showed us the spirit of a true drummer, performing his drum solo on the window gates, the wooden table tops, the chairs and his tambourine!!! For ever I will remember you as Animal from the Muppet's.

My heart goes out to you!

Being in such a small space "Wild Yaks" maintained the energy and delivery of

a large venue and brought us in closer to there core spirit.

We had a lot of great music at KGB Jam - 9/21/09, performed by "Wild Yaks"

Robert Bryn - (Bronco) Vocals & Guitar

Zack Davis- Guitar

Dan Scinta- Bass

Martin Cartagena- (Animal) Drums

Aztec Economy "9 Yodels"

Our first time bringing in an improv group... http://newyorkisdead.net/ with performers Michael Mason & Cole Wimpee, they did an original piece written by Casey Wimpee "9 Yodels". The Actors took there places slowly. Through a repetitive organic sound they began to fill the room like a sand storm. I watched a wave of awareness take over the audience. Cole was the earth and Michael was the sky... The struggle of survival, a man's most inner thoughts were felt.

I will be interviewing Casey, Cole & Michael next week, stay tuned.

JohnnyD, Mia & I were very proud to have introduced a new element to the KGB Jam

Thank you all for coming out last night! We had an amazing evening of unexpected entertainment!

For the first time at KGB Jam we had an improve group Aztec Economy followed by the music of Wild Yaks! I will be uploading photos and a small write up on the evenings events later today so stay posted!

LIVE LOVE LAUGH

Botanical Garden Brooklyn

A lovely sunny Sunday afternoon spent roaming the Botanical gardens of Brooklyn. With family near by we all enjoyed a stroll in the rose garden. LIVE LOVE LAUGH. Thank you Universe for all the blessings of today

photos KGB jam sept 14th

KGB JAM Sept 14th

The night was filled with excitement. Mia and I invited Tim Garrigan, Electric People, and Niketta Scott. The musicians brought a vibration to KGB that's all ways unexpected and new. We are very excited to hear the new songs off Tim Garrigan self produced album, GRAND STATION CENTRAL. Cd's are available check his myspace.

www.myspace.com/timgarrigan

Electric People surprised us with a full drum kit!!!!!! There debut performance was over the top with songs such as "My Love My Love" and "Bitch on Dope". This Brooklyn based three piece band consists of Adam James (vocals guitar/ organs), Jesse Katz (drums), LD Catastrophe (bass/vocals), these young vibrant musicians turned KGB into a rock venue for 15 min!!! Amazing.

Check out their myspace

www.myspace.com/electricpeopletheband

New onto the scene Niketta Scott, a diamond in the rough! You will be seeing more of her. After two martinis she was ready. Belting out tunes: "Infatuation" (self written), "Miss Celie's Blues" (from the Color Purple), "Your Sorry" (self written). The crowd responded with such passion for more that we would not let her leave without singing one more song. She sang Fallen (cover)

Thank you all for coming out to support our KGB JAM sessions!!!! This has been an amazing summer of creativity and unity. Our next event will be Monday Sept 21!!! We eager to introduce Aztec Economy and The Wild Yaks!!!!

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