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The essence of romantic love is that wonderful beginning, after which sadness and impossibility may become the rule.
~ Anita Brookner

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The many surprises of the day

I tried so hard to go to the Metropolitan Museum in the morning with company,  but it did not have much result.  When I finally got on to the idea of going alone I stepped out side and found the sun-shining and I was over dressed,  (wearing my ski pants...)  So I only got one block when I decided I should change  into something more comfortable.  And so my adventure begins.  I went back changed into the perfect pair of miss sixty jeans construction worker fit for me.  Turtle nexk and Brownfeld Auto Service Ski Cap.  MB was awake when I got back and we  decided to go to the Flea Market on Meeker.  As she got ready I worked on my  monologue for SCK.  When I turned and looked a a big lump under my bed sheets,  thinking it's a pillow I press it lightly but firmly,  and realize it's my cat, Lexington Kentucky Bourbon...  Hiding under my sheets.  Ok I love animals I love my kitty,  I have a no pets on the bed rule.  No pets on dinner tables or Kitchen counters.  It's just one of those basic live with me rules.  So to find LKB hiding under all my sheets and my bed still neatly made, I gasped in shock "Usted que esta haciedo aqui" grite.  MB also witness LKB's very sly move,  We lifted the covers and she didn't move,  As if to say if I stay really still I will be invisible and I can sleep here....  Well, I gently told her no kitties on the bed.  She got up and moved to her little own bed with personal blanket given to her by aunt MB That was once her blanket.  I will never forget the look on LKB  under the covers.

We went to the flea market and found these amazing set of personal teapots The Flea market was full of old chairs and one giant wooden desk,  the desk of a once very important person,  because the size of your desk in the past was a sign of importance and knowledge,  but now I think it's the lightness of your load,  meaning can travel with all electrical equipment to accomplish any task in your field.  How the times change and generations of the future will mostly view that big desk as impractical and cumbersome, But it was romantic,  and I could see the pages of hand written information of love notes, or novels, or secrets that were written over that desk.  That desk hopefully never had a computer on it....  At least not a desk top.  That desk probably would not make it into my hall way.  Before the desk lucky we had already found an object perfect for the 2 of us that brought us immense amount of joy, expressed in giggles.  The colorful set of personal teapots!!!

In las pequeñas aventuras de florkitty,  We decided to go to

Love Quote

The human heart, at whatever age, opens to the heart that opens in return.
~ Maria Edgeworth

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Crisis, Faith, Death

So far the month of February we have seen 2 devastating earthquakes,  and waited for a Tsunami...  I was at the restaurant last night when I saw a man talking to whom I believe was his son.  They had written on the table crisis, faith, death...  We all have crisis from personal to universal.   The world is in crisis now with the wars and natural disasters...  My prayers have been going out to all these people at night.  When I compare my own little crisis of the heart I feel selfish and indulgent,  nonetheless these are  my feelings and I must heal from my broken heart.  My theory started on crisis because when my relationship feel apart I went into crisis mode JAJA a lot of good that did only bad decision after bad decision.  But now I am in faith,  I grew up Catholic and I still follow a lot of the holiday tendencies that my parents shared with me as a child.  Lent happened right after the last time I was intimate with JG,  this was a bad decision even though at the time it felt great,  the out come was detrimental both physically and emotionally.

So I was wondering what to give up for lent,  JG, & just going out on dates with men who want to be with me...  That was my choice.  Since I have been single they come out of nowhere,  at first it was flattering to feel desired,  but now it's just confusing and I have this tendency of comparing everyone to JG.  NOT good!  So for Lent I have given up social outings with Men.  Hoping that this will help me find clarity in myself.  But as I do this I have been feeling, that I should go further.  So I have taken a vow of Celibacy,  for 3 months to start.  I need to re-establish my self worth!  And the last time I was intimate was amazing especially if you love the person,  but if it turns out to have been a joke,  the emotion spiral is very painful.  So I have realized I need to do this!  I need to find myself all by myself.

I have been sexual since I was a teen, and looking back at my track record I have never been alone since.   Jumping, from one relationship to the next, with only a few months in between.  I am open to sexuality and understand the brain aspects of getting off,  so why be intimate with emotionally detrimental results?  I am 32 and by now I should know better!  My goal is one year starting Feb7/2010.  Let's see how far I go...  In my mind there is only one person who can change that.  Me! It will all come down to respect and worthiness!  So 3 months at a time...

Which brings me to the last word written on the chalk table - Death,  it's inevitable,  so let's make a difference!  I feel mortal and I want to leave a mark, a good memory, a good life.

Love Quote

Love is life.  All, everything that I understand, I understand only because I love.
~ Leo Tolstoy

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GROW. Evolve. Change. BE "On to the NEXT one." ~Jay-Z

Abiola Abrams, a great friend of my mine, posted that quote today.  I love it! Grow Evolve Change!!! - on it,  as for the next one,  I found her I must move on to ME!!!  Right now thats the best place to be.

Off to another evening, at the Olive Tree Cafe & Comedy Cellar.  Good people, Good food,  Great laughs.  

Snowstorm day2!!!

I miss you!!!  I miss you more  when it snows.  Work was slow today I got to go home early.  Lexington is in shock, she is very talkative.  Her raspy meow is on the I've been there, done that tone of voice.  I have 2 goals for tonight before bed: SCK & ISSA.  I have found myself eating a lot of chocolate lately...  Normally I would say I don't have a sweet tooth,  But there is nothing better than a large glass of cold milk and a pure piece of dark chocolate.  My home has quickly grown into a Sanctuary.  Even though my thoughts wonder, I have found it easier everyday to simplify, stay positive and productive.  My father called me this morning to make sure I was careful because a man died today, from a tree branch falling on him in the park.  I thought to myself what a way to go how strange one minute in the park.  And what a lovely way to wake up I believe the call was around 8am....

Love Quote

Love without reason lasts the longest.
~ Author unknown

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GODDESS prints

I made 25 prints during the Holidays.  Special very special. 

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POP!!! MONDAY 3/15/2010!!!

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That which is love is always beautiful.
~ Norwegian Proverb

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Lauri Panopoulos

I attended the opening reception of JUST OFF at SLOAN FINE ART, last night.  It was so full when I arrived, that I must go back today and view the works again.  There is one piece in particular that will be in my heart forever!!!  And if the Universe wishes...  One day in my home.  She was the first object I saw,  and throughout the night I wondered back to her several times.  The artist Lauri Panopoulos, I have worked with her in the past at NYAA.  We shared a few stories, but I had not seen much of her work since...  The Bride of Gold and Money.  She is, to me another Goddess!    The way she stands,  Her Boots!!!  The rose!  She makes me wonder is this pleasure or duty?  Practical or Tactful 

What do my shoes say?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LENA!!!

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Love Quote

Human love is often but the encounter of two weaknesses.
~ Francois Mauriac

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Art by Kylie Manning tittle laughy taffy

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HANA FOOD

Really, I went in to buy my duchebag sandwich, when I found another name...  who is naming this?  A drunk sandwich maker at 4 am....

I know your Latino, because your using the upside down question mark to start the sentence.  One clue closer to figuring this out.
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"Your actions speak so loudly that I cannot hear what you say." Ralph Waldo Emmerson

Work in progress by Michael Meadors

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I see you everywhere

Hanuman...

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My greatest days are ahead of me!

No matter what you do somebody will find a way to find something wrong with what your doing... Find my spirit, I will make mistakes along the way , but I can't really worry about that. I do to the best of my ability , do my best to get better as a woman as a friend as a spiritual being. As a child I was told I could not be an artist I could not consider that a life.... I fought and fought and fought, rebelled against that idea by being as bad as I could... Now I realize I am an artist. I can be pure and true to my abilities, I can balance the dirty girl and the spiritual seeker. I am full of respect for myself in a new light, my body and mind I need to try to be more spiritual. I have changed! God is good!