For all the troubles and all the pleasure I Love being Alive!!!! Thank you Universe xoxo
live love laugh sent from my touch
Thursday, December 31, 2009
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
The serpentine tamer... count down to 2010
Spending the afternoon preparing for NEW YEARS
live love laugh sent from my touch
Monday, December 28, 2009
Let go of that bitter Apple
So many different points of view, I we all know I have been feeling the disappointment of love lost.... That bitter sweet taste of losing something that was wonderful, and yet is over!!!! I wish to keep the good memories alive, for there are so many, but If I only think of the good then I latch on to this illusion of what I LOVE... that no longer is. so ..... and if I focus on the bad that ended the relationship then I become angry and full of hatred for being in this situation that has no logic... how tragic.
so love the past and become delusional or hate the past and become jaded... wow... the in between stages of life are always the hardest, because once enough time passes, everything fades, like my teens they have begun to fade. Wow I would enjoy a re-encounter with my school girl uniform just about now...
Saturday, December 26, 2009
Inventory of the past 365 days
All Positive Accomplishmentt:
Being more honest with myself
Olive Tree
Goddess Of Transformation
Malena
Burlesque
The Box
Slipper Room
Purgatorio
ISSA - not completed
Less Debt
Tango
KGB Jam
Lexington Kentucky is home
Calypso Rose
Google phone
Live Love Laugh
Spending time with the whole family
Finding a new Apartment w Monica
Knitting
Less Positive
*** ***
Baby maker ...
Go to more castings
Need new Head shots
Learn new monologues
Go to more classes
Dance More
dance more dance more
Use Flip camera
Organize phone & comp. to function in life better
Look inside about *** ***
Visit Colombia
Collect images of art work I have participated in
Wish List :
Argentina
Colombia
Bali
Australia
Rome
Martial arts Film
Find a work out ritual that's fit for me
Ruminate More
Steady work routine
Patience
simplify my personal belongings
Studio space
Explore New Music
This year I look forward to staying Focused, on track with my goals, hopes, and dreams
Friday, December 25, 2009
The walk home, the rain failing lightly on the dirty snow of NYC, I am walking down Houston my Mission to return to Brooklyn with trees. The holidays threw me for a loop. I must complete my lists before New Years... As I walk the voices begin to rise. *** *** is dead, can you believe it *** *** is dead. I get to rest tonight. Time to thank for all my accomplishments. How did *** *** die, it was an attack of the heart, so painful to watch I tell you. But now we must move on. You see there seems to be a corporation in my head, ME, MYSELF & I. That night on my way home they needed to vent. The plan was, to train at work. Starting at 7 pm, but it was a slow day and knowing that the rest of the week is going to be busy, they offered me the evening off. So as I walk toward the L train, taking the longest possible route to 1st and 14th. As I reach 1st ave I get a call... Sure come by. I enter an old apt with a tub in the kitchen. Can you believe this I have been living in NYC for 12 years and this is the first time I am in an apartment with a full vintage tub in the kitchen, I can't get past the visual, I just want to sit in there and the let the shower run over me while watching you make coffee.... wow I got to go. So now WE are walking again. I enjoy being alone in the city tonight. There are few people out, including traffic. walking down to canal street. A place I normally would avoid in the day. It's quiet the red lights glisten in the rain. German tourists are talking behind me. The girl has beautiful full lips no lipstick but the are red from the cold.
I love my long black Jacket I can continue to zig zag through the city in the rain, Masotta I am thinking of walking in the rain for hours. I get on the train . Take out my google phone as I wait begin to play games. I board the train with out looking but sure I am facing the right side, how many time have I taken this train... When we get to the next station I jump out and question my instinct only to board the next train swiftly as though I am in an Indiana Jones movie. I check and NOW I AM ON THE WRONG TRAIN. Giggling to myself I realize I don't want to go home yet. I get out an walk again in the rain with the lights and the quiet solace of the city. I HEART NY. Feeling alive in a simple walk.
Thursday, December 17, 2009
Sunday, December 13, 2009
Fire Play
Spent the afternoon with a great friend and performer (I Like You), I found a new thrilling fear, to conquer.... Fire play. I enjoy the feel of this against my skin, but my heart beats so fast, and I must take a moment and slow down!!! After a great work out, and no more hair on my arms. It's time for work.
Saturday, December 12, 2009
druken Santas
walking cross town on 4th St. after an amazing workout with some fire play, I became confused by the amount of Santa costumes I was seeing, disturbing drunken. My inner child wants to puke! I am going to enforce a no Santa rule tonight at work.
Ten pounds project
I read all these blogs about losing weight staying thin, what about the girls who need to gain weight? who have a healthy active lifestyle, but somehow got to thin. Last night at the NYAA art opening, I was talking with Panning, Nicole, & Elizabeth all three talking about losing weight they look at me and say you don't have that problem... no my problem is I don't gain it!!!! so my goal 10 pounds and the only way I will know is how my legs and ass fit into my jeans. Since I have a phobia of scales (thanks to r.m...)
I want to lie on my back with my legs in the air, squeezing to fit into my favorite jeans beat up black with patches everywhere. I want to feel that my legs can barely be contained.
I want to lie on my back with my legs in the air, squeezing to fit into my favorite jeans beat up black with patches everywhere. I want to feel that my legs can barely be contained.
Friday, December 11, 2009
dumbo's feather
simple little things mean so much. recently I was showered with gifts. everyone loves to be cared about. but most gifts especially in this seasons when people feel obliged to give... mean nothing.
I met a stranger, who gave me a bracelet simple wooden beads, old, worn in, faded, said they brought protection. I don't take them off, if you don't see them on my wrist they are on my ankle under a big flowing dress, or in my hair as I model for artists. but mostly they are on my right wrist, on my left wrist Live, Love, Laugh. Words to live by, another reminder another great gift.
my wrists make me feel like WONDER WOMAN.
I met a stranger, who gave me a bracelet simple wooden beads, old, worn in, faded, said they brought protection. I don't take them off, if you don't see them on my wrist they are on my ankle under a big flowing dress, or in my hair as I model for artists. but mostly they are on my right wrist, on my left wrist Live, Love, Laugh. Words to live by, another reminder another great gift.
my wrists make me feel like WONDER WOMAN.
Thursday, December 10, 2009
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
Recently it has come to my attention that I fall into so many (WRONG) categories. I am sitting at the bar last night when this man who looked like he was wearing a wig, and has laid out in the sun until his skin was orange, starts talking to me.... I take a moment stand, turn my chair to make sure (in what I consider a polite manner) I give him my back. My lack of interest in his solo bragging conversation labels me Jewish or a Dyke... I turned in awe, and thought to myself hmmmm, it's better then being asked if I am a gender bender from Singapore. I posted the following comment on Facebook and this is what I got.
Are you Jewish or a dyke? No I am Colombian
Natsku Vega
LOL! Perfect....
Heather Ackerman Humphries
LOL. Please come visit me w/ Monie. I am laid up after surgery. Would love to see your pretty face.
Gayatri Martin
labels, gender, are you human? i did a cool gender exercise at my tantra workshop this past week-end ... lists of gender attributes were cool i think u r cool
Jeff Stache
It's a classic question! Do you thnk it would work if I tried it as a pick up line?
Jeff Stache
Gender attribute are important ot humans, otherwise we'd be squids. Just importnat not to be trapped by them but use them to our best advantage.
Matthew P. Gordon
OMG did someone actually ask you that? You're kidding...
Jeff Stache
Was it a man or woman wsho asked you? Im mt imagination I'm seeing either guy with slick hair, a wifebeater shirt and a big gold chain, or... a woman with slick hair, a wifebeater shirt and a big gold chain.
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